My Spiritual Awakening: Shedding the Old

When I went through my awakening, I often contemplated how helpful it would have been to have a manual.  I often google searched topics like “spiritual awakening and rashes”.  This is an account of some of the things I went through and what I learned. 

When I received my first Reiki attunement in 2017, it unraveled a lot of density and greatly heightened my sensitivity to energy and energy beings.  I define density as a collection of experiences, conscious and unconscious learnings, from our surroundings – family, teachers, media, movies, books, etc. – that teach us limited ways of thinking and being.  They are energies we’ve absorbed that no longer resonate with the frequency we are at and with the truths that reside within.   

Bodily Symptoms

That density, at times, left me through my physical body.  Vomiting, rashes and bodily sensations in the same areas were mostly what I experienced.  It was an inner knowing I had that when these things happened, it wasn’t some regular illness.  My Reiki teacher had suggested shifts would occur and it was also helpful that a good friend had many of these symptoms in common during her awakening.   Before this, I never experienced having rashes.  Thank goodness, I just had the one major occurrence. Mine started at the tips of my ears but the itching was so persistent that my partner strongly urged me to see a doctor.  Even though I clearly knew why it was happening, I placated him by going.  The best possible explanation the doctor could give me was that I had developed an allergy to the plastic that my eyeglass frames were made from (the same pair I had been wearing for the last 5 years).  He shrugged his shoulders and prescribed me a cream that he said probably wouldn’t help.  The rash soon spread to my back and legs and I barely slept for two weeks.  Just to test that plastic theory, I even switched to wearing clothing made from all natural fibres.  That didn’t help at all, but then, as suddenly as the rash came on, it left.

The bodily sensations were most interesting.  I recall feeling pulsating vibrations on my upper lip and in the palms of my hands.  My feet would become very hot for a few seconds at a time, and these sensations would take place at all times of the day no matter where I was or what I was doing.  Always, I’d stop and take notice. That in itself was the main message.  Also, my feet wanted me to move forward in life, my lips to speak my truth, my hands to perform healing work.  

I knew these symptoms, no matter how strange or unpleasant, would pass and I would be the better for it.  I often wondered about all the people out there experiencing similar things as me, and how they couldn’t tell their employers why they really couldn’t go into work that day.

Release Through Dreams

I also processed the density while in my dream state – again, vomiting but also using the toilet on numerous occasions.  I still have toilet dreams to this day.  And one could say, dropping number twos must mean releasing a huge amount of density!

I dreamt (and still do) of people I had unresolved issues with, past situations that had caused anxiety, and many things to forgive myself for.

Snakes came to visit me often, and they grow by shedding their skin.  Confirmation, in case I needed it.

Energetic Boundaries & Protection

By far, this affected me the most.  I found I could not – I just could not – handle being around certain people and being in certain places.  Most restaurants became excessively noisy for me as my hearing became more sensitive. 

My existing food sensitivities were becoming stronger around this time.  I consulted with an intuitive healer who identified a place within my digestive system that she described as acting like floodgates, allowing in dense energies from other people.  This rung true for me, and as I focused on strengthening my energetic boundaries, my sensitivities all but disappeared.  For several months, I stopped eating in my workplace lunchroom.  I’d eat at a quiet park and meditate instead or practice seeing auras around trees and rocks.  I couldn’t do the small talk, the gossip, the drama.  I took a very long break from listening to certain music genres.  I made a conscious effort to speak to myself using loving words.  These are all energies. 

When you are made of Light and that Light grows brighter, you will attract all kinds of beings to you and this is where you must do the energy protection work and intend for who you want to attract into your life.  Energetic protection is very real and I quickly realized it’s not just about shielding oneself from gossip.  I read many spiritual books, went to workshops and experimented with stronger ways to protect my auric field, my energy bodies.  There are many methods:  visualizing oneself in an egg or bubble made of different materials, wearing crystals, reciting mantras, requesting assistance from spirit guides and angels…

Personally, my shields didn’t appear very strong for me in the beginning because deep down in my core, doubt and fear still persisted.  Our will and our minds are so strong that it can take down any shield.  When I finally truly believed that I was deserving of help, that I was made of the Light, that I was also powerful, I felt more protected and became better at discerning the energies around me. 

 “I intend to only work with beings of unconditional love” or “Only unconditional love may pass through my shield” are some affirmations I use. 

Signs and Synchronicities

I wanted to read about all the metaphysical topics in the beginning, anything I could get my hands on.  In due course, I became naturally drawn to a few areas of interest and I would be led to them in various ways: a key word or image would continuously pop up without me searching for them (on a t-shirt or bag, hearing it in passing, poster on a lamppost, etc.); I’d dream about it; my eyes would be drawn to a certain book on a library shelf; I’d think of it and my body would twitch or pulsate somewhere…the ways are varied because we have so many senses – the physical, yes, but also of the psychic kind.  Signs also appeared to guide me to certain places to go to or certain people to meet.  The key is not to go looking for them, because that is just overthinking and I’ve done that.

One beautiful synchronicity I experienced early on was when I walking down the street behind a man, whose T-shirt read “There are no problems, only solutions”.  At the exact moment, a car drove by, blasting the song “Stairway to Heaven”.  I had just started working with a life coach during the time when I bumped into a young boy whose t-shirt read, “Put me in, coach”.  For several days, I had been pondering which crystal pendulum to buy.  I was in a restaurant and though there was a lot of background chatter, my ears picked up on a voice saying “green and purple go well together”.  Ahh, so fluorite it is.  Thank you.

Seeing 11:11 or 1:11 on the clock or consistently noticing any other angel number sequence is an indication that you are well on your spiritual path.

Brain Balancing

I was a studyholic in school I and worked in the accounting field for nearly 15 years, so my left hemisphere is pretty developed.  Magick doesn’t exist there though.  Logic does and of course, having knowledge and facts can serve us well but we are meant for so much more.

I pride myself on being a good speller, so imagine my shock one day when I was writing out a simple four letter word and I couldn’t spell it properly!  I had to try two or three times until it came out right.  Then I laughed out loud at how absurd it was; I knew this had to do with energy balancing itself in my brain.

Another thing I am good at is memorizing details. But for the life of me, I could no longer recall which book I had read something in or who had told me some piece of information.  It was like there was a soup made of information and wisdom all being mixed together in a huge vat.  What I knew though, was that I was somehow filtering any information that came to me. Now, only truths for me stay in that pot and non truths go into some abyss.

I’m all about fostering right brain development now, so if I can do something a little differently, I do it.  Creativity can simply be taking a different way home, cooking without a recipe, journaling, singing out loud or just doodling.

Dietary Changes

Consider the energy of food, where it comes from, how it’s produced and also whose hands it passes when it finally arrives on your plate.  You are what you eat.  Food sensitivities may develop as your body adjusts and asks for higher vibrational foods.

I am shown certain foods in my dreams to incorporate more of into my diet and have received suggestions to go vegan.  My uncle on the Other Side (this is what I call the place people go to when they pass on) showed me a scene of a deep pool of water and inside it, people consuming fries and drinking pop; water being symbolic of the emotional state, he was telling me to be mindful of when and why I eat junk food. 

The Puzzle Comes Together

Now I can see how I was guided down this path.  The places I’ve been, the people I’ve met, and why I was drawn to certain things as a child.  For me, one of these aha moments was when I realized that two of my favourite novels had these titles, “The Diviners” and “Lady Oracle”.  And somehow over the years, I had unwittingly amassed various things with owls on them; I discover later on that the owl is one of my spirit animals.

The detours also had to have happened for a reason.  What is revealed is done so in Divine timing, when we are ready for them.  Could I have handled all this when I was 20?!?  No, I needed to become stronger and wiser.  There truly is a lesson in everything. 

Then it came crashing down on me, the onset of guilt and shame of how I acted before my awakening.  I was that crazy driver who would cut people off, I yelled at customer service agents.  Gah.  We evolve though and I am proud to say that I had the will to become a better person and to break free from the Matrix.

I did alienate a lot of people at first because I would practice avoidance instead of communicating effectively about what I was going through.  I invite you to be honest with close friends and family, if you feel this would be of benefit.  Some people just may not understand as they are on a different wavelength. On the other hand, it could create a ripple effect.

I found these posts on spiritual awakening to be wonderfully resonant and beautifully written.

The Lightworker’s Way by Doreen Virtue also helped me immensely during the early days because it was a real life account of her awakening to her spiritual power.

There are just so many aspects to this topic; one blog post cannot capture them all.  And it’s all still unfolding for me. 

Density continues to be released as we all raise our vibration.  This density, at the collective level on Earth, is being revealed in the old systems built and sustained over generations.  As they become dismantled, there will be much upheaval.  Be gentle with yourself and with each other.  From a higher spiritual perspective, see the positive changes that are happening.